Stuck

 Why am I still here? I could have left 15 years ago, 10 years ago, or 5 years ago. My heart cannot feel anymore. I am still here, where I left myself 25 years ago. 

I can no longer move. I am too coward and out of options. There is no one else to blame but myself. I thought he was the one. I guess... I am not the one. I am not the girl.

I am here again breaking. Alone. I wanted to cry. I wanted to shout. I am all dried up. I can no longer see myself being happy. 

I lost that one chance. I am too old for that kind of game. I was too arrogant. 

I do not know where I am going. I am lost in this life. The pavement that I was walking on was long gone before I knew it.